Arrows connecting the thoughts, or how I teach my son to overcome schooling
In school your payoff comes from giving up your personal responsibility, just doing what you're told by strangers even if that violates the core principles of your household.
Shocking Origins of Public Education, John Taylor Gatto
I will be coming out soon from a gag order I've been on about anything having to do with education. I have been reticent about writing on the subject for a whole variety of reasons. When we were homeschooling, or may I say "unschooling", life became our learning platform and as many of you know by my writing there's not a lot I write about my private life, especially when it comes about my kids. It's hard to write without including massive details about the spawnage. I do believe children have a right to privacy.
Now that my kids have been in school since September, I am ready to explode. I have been biting my fingers and tongue because, grock, I hate the culture of schools.
Homeschooling in New York is a double full time job for secular parents with no church groups to pick up the slack of classes, workshops, study groups or just plain old playtime and baby-sitting. If you are one of the thousands of evangelicals, mormons or conservative jews homeschooling in New York, you will have a church, tabernacle or temple as a support system that's got your back. If you are an atheist like us, good luck.
Religious organizations enjoy the perks of no-taxes and so buildings are readily available to them. Sure, there are non-denominational groups inside churches, but that's not the point. Real estate prices, and the culture of 'flying under the radar' of homeschooling New Yorkers have doomed any attempts to create independent learning centers or homeschooling co-ops that could help working class parents homeschool. Homeschooling in New York City comes at a great personal and financial cost that comes from building a "schooling" or learning infrastructure from scratch.
So schooling was the option put on my kids table. They were willing to try if it meant being in one place and with one group of people at a time. Of course, they hate it. Sure they have the consistency of one place. They hate the fact they cannot do things at their own pace, and at their own peace.
That's the fundamental problem of schooling. Unnatural time-tables of what a child is supposed to learn by when are also complicated by the battery of educratical assessment tests and the whole myth of "educational failure" that springs from schooling culture.
So even as I have my kids going to school, homeschooling --or in my case, unschooling, has not diminished. On the contrary, it's intensified.
My oldest is in fourth grade. This year he is supposed to take some assessment test upon which, as one hysterical father said to me, his whole middle school existence will rest.
Ummm. Yeah.
I honestly don't understand the hysteria over these exams. Everybody hates them, but not one schooling parent I talk to seems to know a way out of the hysteria. "It's horrible, the teachers have to teach to the test", they all say while rending their shirts and gnashing their teeth.
Me? I always sit there blinking :
So what's the problem with that?
What do you mean what's the problem with that? It's not learning, it's not education, it's blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah.
So? It's a test, what's the big deal?
My response usually baffles people --and most of the time people have no idea that :
(1) I was not a homeschooling but I am unschooling mom.
(2) I used to teach high school and college.
(3) I hate, nay, despise assessment tests.
It's been 20 years since I first started teaching. I was once a private tutor, then a bilingual high school History teacher and then an undergraduate Spanish and Latin American literature adjunct. Yet it wasn't until I became a mother that I really reckoned how humans learn. Also, I used to be one of those people who hyperventilated when taking tests. I wasn't always like that. I was a nerd after all who was in the top 10 highest scores for the College Board in Puerto Rico. Of course, that test was mostly in Spanish. Coming to this country and having to adjust my skills to compete in the English actually made my comfort nerd zone vanish. Panic attacks were de riguer around testing time --be it through exams or term papers, by the way.
I always joke that parenting has a little bit of National Geographic, a great dose of Desmond Morris' Human Zoo and a lot of Monty Python and parenting with unschooling reveiled the necessary evil of tests.
My "Aha!" moment came one day when my oldest, Thing 1, was of crawling age and discovered the magic of the TV cabinet door. I was in one of those anthropologist mommy moments, observing while pretending to read. There he was, prying his little fingers around the door exploring the wooden rectangle. Then he heard a "pop" and the latch came loose. To his amusement, he discovered that pushing it would take it back to it's prior state. So he tries to close it but it pops open again. He sits up : Open. Close. Open. Close. Giggles of delight. He does this for what seems like an eternity and then, when actually notices the machines that lay inside the cabinet, he was ready to attack.
"Uh-uh", I said. "You can't play with that. Close the door".
Thing 1 just blinked back at me.
"Close the door".
More blinking.
Finally I gesture to him with my hand, "Close". He looks back at me and then the door, now with interest. So I get down on my knees, sit next to him and touch the door. "This is a door". He looks surprised and squeaked an "oh!". Then I motion and declare "Close" and "Open" with the door. This time he squealed with excitement an "oh oh oh oh oh!".
As a language teacher, I loved hearing from my students their aha! moments. It was the stories of "dreaming in Spanish" or of them understanding conversations in the train that brought tears to my eyes and a "Yes!" to my lips. Those stories were the validation that I had somehow helped them find their way.
Notice, I don't use the word teach. They each had their own timing, their own experiences, their own learning rhythm and groove. I was their to just make sure they could get the mechanics of the language, just like my son go the mechanics of "open/close".
That Open/Close moment proved to me that learning cannot be forced, coerced, or bludgeoned into humans. Testing, unnatural timetables or definitions of "success" or even worse, the branding iron or "failure" are not just obstacles to learning. Coerced schooling (aka Compulsory Education) is not about learning and all about keeping child welfare officers off the streets.
Read New York State's education law. It's a morass of definitions of hierarchies, preocuppied with who gets to control what part of the budget and decision process in the department. This is where the comissioner is described as a god-like ruler of education for the state, followed by defintions of deputies, superintendents, teachers, staffers, and then parents.
This hierachy of definitions, by the way, is framed by child abuse (sections Article 23-B and Article 65). Also of inteterest is the language used to define parents (section 3212): Verbs denoting submission and force are part of the vocabulary.
It's clear that parents are expected to submit to the SED and the commissioner's will by "causing" their charges or natural children to attend school. Non attendance is tantamount to child abuse.
The secret of American schooling is that it doesn't teach the way children learn -- nor is it supposed to. Schools were conceived to serve the economy and the social order rather than kids and families -- that is why it is compulsory. As a consequence, the school can not help anybody grow up, because its prime directive is to retard maturity. It does that by teaching that everything is difficult, that other people run our lives, that our neighbors are untrustworthy even dangerous. School is the first impression children get of society. Because first impressions are often the decisive ones, school imprints kids with fear, suspicion of one another, and certain addictions for life. It ambushes natural intuition, faith, and love of adventure, wiping these out in favor of a gospel of rational procedure and rational management.
Shocking Origins of Public Education - Gatto:
One of my fears of having the kids go to school is starting to realize. Thing 1 has started to call himself stupid and dumb for not figuring out answers expected from him in the time set by the teacher, the school, the board of education, and the Regents. A kid who has doing math problems in his head since the age of seven, now is calling himself a failure because he's not answering questions in the alloted seconds expected from him.
I am, of course, seething with anger. I won't give into it. This is an opportunity to show my son how to fight back intellectually and socially.
My son's teacher went on and on about how she hated testing. We seem to agree with that. What we don't agree with is the approach on handling testing. I'd rather she focused on the obvious : the tests are about data management. If the kids can organize and manage the words in order to answer the test question, they can pass ANY test.
Going back to the drama over the assessment tests, my battle cry is "It's just a test". We spend an inordinate amount of time discussing how to break the texts in order to organize the information needed for answering the questions. It's so obvious that wether a written "social studies test" or one of those mentally-retarding math problems, they are all about two things : data analysis and data management. Why is it such a big deal to just teach the kids these analytical and logistics skills?
Well, it's up to me to teach my son how to cut open the motherfucking beast's belly all by himself. So when the other day he was crying about how dumb he felt doing one of those pre-tests, I went into battle mode.
Especially since he is supposed to do these tests by himself. I have been asked by the teacher not to correct them because, and I quote, "I need to know how he is doing in order to teach him".
Really?
So I sat at the table by Thing 1 and asked him to read. He just turned all those sentences into a "Catcher in the Rye" moment.
"Stop, you're depressing me".
"But I'm depressed mommy".
"Ok, I'll read and we're going to break it down together. I won't look at the test questions because that's your job. But I'm going to show you how to break down the story into it's ideas".
"(Huge Sigh) Ok."
The article was title "Pocket full of posies and the black death". When I read the title, I couldn't remember the whole song, so I sang that verse. A yelped "Oh Oh Oh Oh, I know that song" came out of his mouth. Then the a realization : "That baby song is about the plague?! Cool. Gross."
So we underlined words. We wrote by each paragraph one word summaries. He boxed words he didn't immediately know what they meant. Arrows connecting ideas were shot.
He's eyes kept getting wider and wider, as if the secrets to the illusion of a magic trick had been revealed. It was the "Open/Close" scene of 9 years ago all over again. By the end, Thing 1 was beaming.
"Ok mommy, now I'll take the test".
"You do that, I'll cook some dinner".
He answered all 10 questions in less than 10 minutes. What his teacher did not accomplish in 15 weeks, I was able to accomplish in one hour.
The solution? It's in another post. Oh, and no, I'm not talking aboutfree market education either. What I am talking about is akin to this:
A good educational system should have three purposes: it should provide all who want to learn with access to available resources at any time in their lives; empower all who want to share what they know to find those who want to learn it from them; and, finally, furnish all who want to present an issue to the public with the opportunity to make their challenge known. Such a system would require the application of constitutional guarantees to education. Learners should not be forced to submit to an obligatory curriculum, or to discrimination based on whether they possess a certificate or a diploma. Nor should the public be forced to support, through a regressive taxation, a huge professional apparatus of educators and buildings which in fact restricts the public's chances for learning to the services the profession is willing to put on the market. It should use modern technology to make free speech, free assembly, and a free press truly universal and, therefore, fully educational.
Full text of DESCHOOLING SOCIETY by Ivan Illich courtesy of Paul Knatz | General Characteristics of New Formal Educational Institutions
For now though, I'm not supposed to say anything else about schooling .... Riiiiight.
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I am a huge fan of public schools. But I also hate the haphazard, unfair, crazy way public education gets carried out.
My daughter's schools have been great. The Middle School application process that Bloomberg (with no children) put us through is insane. But at least the school is good.
I could never home school. I don't think I could prepare my kid for life well enough...plus my kids will listen to others in a different way than they listen to us and that means that bt attending a school they get two ways of learning.
I have been the product of public schools and always made of them what I wanted. There are problems with that, but I certainly have found few private schools that I would have preferred. And homeschooling would never have been possible for me either as a kid or a parent. Bravo to those who can make it work.
By brain hurts!
I was in a Montessouri school for two years. It was so amazing I still remember much of the experience nearly forty years later. Then when I was seven we moved, and I entered the public school system's second grade.
I was bored out of my skull!!!
I remember looking out the classroom window, wondering if there were a means of escape. I remember being frustrated at not having the opportunity to learn anything. I developed a combination of arrogance and sullenness ("I'm better than this, and I'm not going to participate.") that took years to break out of.
I tutor math privately. My experience has generally been not to teach the kids anything about math, but to free them from the constraints that stop them from expressing their knowledge -- expressing it even to themselves.
Education is an art, not a science. It cannot be done en masse, and it cannot be measured. Kids want to learn, and they want to experience new things. Unfortunately, public schools bind students, prohibiting new experiences and stifling real learning. I've been in half a dozen different public school systems in five different states, and that experience has been nearly universal. There are exceptions, individual teachers who transcend the system, but they are extremely rare.
It's time to educate the "education professions" and those masquerading as education professionals (Joel Klein) a lesson.
I sooooo agree with you
I also have a 4th grader, and as a concerned mom who wants her child to achieve the highest score possible, I went out and bought the "Let's prepare for the New York State Grade 4" books published by Barron's. Now they are sitting on my desk, and I am pondering whether I should or shouldn't make him study those books over the winter break. One part says "Hell no" after all he deserves a break, the other says "but if he doesn't he'll forget everything, the scores will be low, so forget about a good middle school." And we are talking about a very bright kid here.
You don't know how grateful I am to you for sharing your approach, it makes total sense!
He did score well on the prep tests, Math as well as ESL (high 3 and just a two or three points shy of a 4), though he told me in a discouraged voice that a lot of the kids in his class scored a 4. Talking about pressure. I am at wits end. And it doesn't help that the parents at our highly rated elementary school hire tutors, and do god knows what to have their children excel, after all they already have visions of their children attending Princeton and Harvard (seriously I have overheard such conversations).
These one-size fits all approach when it comes to education has been the cause of many battles, especially when it comes to the education of boys. I had my ahaa moment when I saw "Raising Cain." http://www.pbs.org/opb/raisingcain/
And before I go on, let me say that we aren't the kind of parents who are overindulgent, who think that their kids can't do any wrong, if anything we are doing everything possible to work with the teachers when problems arise.
My younger son who now is a 1st grader is super energetic and has a very hands on approach to learning. And every day his Kindergarten teacher complained to me that he doesn't sit still, he doesn't move quickly enough from on task to the next, and so on. We used positive reinforcement (aka bribes), the star system that seemed to help somewhat, and most of all we did work together with the teacher. But there is only so much you can do, and when not only your child starts to think that there is something wrong with him, but also we as parents feel like shit, and start questioning our parenting skills, wonder where we went wrong, was it Elmo, didn't I nurse enough, and god forbid, might he have ADD? Conversations with the pediatricians just be reassured that "No you are not a bad parent, no he doesn't have ADD (why would you even think that), and yes, the education system sucks."
He is a little boy, who only gets 30 minutes of outdoor play, and the rest of the day he needs to sit still, and listen. My suggestions to read the book or watch the video (I even printed out some of the suggestion from the PBS website for his teacher) were dismissed. And every single parent who had a boy in this class were bombarded at the end of the school day with the same complaints. At the end of Kindergarten they are supposed to read Level 1 books, they are supposed to write their own stories using phonetic spelling, and they are supposed to know very basic addition. Learning thru play, which would be more age appropriate: who cares. This is not say that there aren't children who master these requirements, but oddly enough it was mainly the girls in my son's Kindergarten class who mastered them. This is not to say that boys are less intelligent then girls, they just learn differently, but the way this system is build it is not acknowledging this fact. This is why I feel that everyone who deals with children, and especially those in the higher ranks of the education system should read this book.
So now we are in 1st grade, our male teacher is not from this planet (and I mean this in a good way). There is always positive reinforcement even when the day hasn't gone so well, always on open line of communication, he doesn't make as feel that we are "loser" parents, and most importantly of all he recognizes that there is a way to get this bundle of energy to sit still and listen without crushing his spirit. I wished he could come and live with us.
But to get back to the subject (I just had to get this off my chest): sometimes I wonder if those people who come up with all these pathetic rules and regulations are familiar with how a kid's mind works. I wonder if they even bother to consult childhood and adolescent experts when they create statewide tests or curriculums that create nothing but frustration for all involved, the students, teachers, and parents. May be they are some sadistic farts who hate kids, and want to see them suffer.
I really feel helpless at times, I want my kids to be kids, and they have enough time to grow up. But at the same time I want them to have a solid foundation to stand on. I always ask myself, am I pushing to hard, am I pushing not hard enough? Where do I draw the line here? But most importantly how do we, as parents, get these "farts" to listen to us?


















You raise tough, important issues here which
are difficult to respond to. Public schools in NYC vary a lot both in their dependence on a lock-step curriculum and their devotion to test prep. At best, they can be really exciting places for kids and teachers. Many classrooms and schools are more regimented than may be good for many children. Parents hunt for better schools without knowing for sure what sort of school does best for each child. We're left with our flawed intuitions.
We all know -- for all the hype -- that none of the "high stakes" tests our kids take really measure anything important about them.
Even the worst schools have something kids need most of all, however, other kids.